hmm.

long day.

hmm. yea. i feel like crap.

woke up. went to santa rosa/petaluma/rhonert park. ( not in that order) got home, went to check my schedual for work. started freaking out because i woked at 530 tonight and i wasn't at all prepared. so i took mel and kassi back to their respected homeage. and came home, changed, went to mel's to watch the homecoming parade. fun shit. then i went to work. i thought i was going to die tonight at work. i don't know what it was. but i just couldn't do it. i don't think i can do it. it's so frustrating. and sooo much stuff to know. i'm nervous for tomorrow. i have a test to take, and so much other stuff. i can't do it. i came home and had a mental break down. it was just such a long week. and emotional week. i wont get to much into it. but i feel like i have a small portion of a void has been filled. i hope that that small portion keeps growing until it's all gone. that would makeme really happy, as if i'm not already. *le sigh*

well i should probably go out to my car, and get the stuff for tomorrow. and study? maybe. maybe i should just fail it on porpose. then i won't have to work there.
it would be a great place to work, but right now i have so much going on with school, and Metamorphoses. i'm thinking about maybe not working untill after metamorphoses. i need a break. i thought i could do it. but now i'm thinking i can't.
well i guess i'll just have to wait and see. things will go how they're ment to go.

i really like this feeling (not the sick feeling, the happy feeling) i hope it says around for a while. it's nice.